okay, so a few months ago my ex was in between jobs and had a month off.
We hadn't seen each other in a long time and he knew I was unemployed so he
sent me a message and said "let's play".
We started hanging out a lot.
Going hiking, to the beach, pool, then we started spending every weekend together.
We only got together twice so we were just friends, which was cool.
BUT then recently I started having feelings for him again.. I knew he was NOT the guy for me
so I just kept reminding myself of that.
He started his new job in L.A. and lives in O.C. so he hired a dog walker to come and walk his dog twice a day.
He asked me if I wanted to do it since I was out of work and he trusted me more than some stranger going into his house.
So he's been paying my gas, giving me cash each week and paying for the toll road fees.
I wouldn't really see him during the week, I'd just go over in the afternoon for a few hours, make sure I walked
the dog twice and then left.
I know myself and I felt like I was getting too close so I told him that I didn't want to do this anymore, he should hire the other lady back.
He convinced me to stay.
I was with him all weekend, and yesterday decided that It was time to pull away.
I sent him an email and said that I wanted to be honest with him.
I told him that some feelings were coming back and it just wasn't a good idea for me to be spending
all that time with him and at his house and that this coming Friday would be my last day.
My email was pretty sincere, I laid my feelings out on the line.
His response was pretty emotionless, basically like "stop being a girl, we're helping each other out, blah blah"
I said I'd do this until Friday and that was it.
So today I'm at his place, out walking the dogs (mine too) and his old dog walker comes up to me (I've met her a few times)
and asks how my weekend was blah blah blah,
then says "so is Jay seeing Brenda again? She was here the other day, waving at me and I wasn't sure if that was her or not?"
I'm fuming inside.. try to play it off like whatever.
Oh and let me jump back.. yesterday I snooped on his computer. He gave me his password a while ago and never changed it.
I saw ALL these pictures of him and Brenda. Thank god she wasn't hot or thin.. LOL
I KNOW I shouldn't have snooped but my curiosity got the best of me.
so anyway, I have these imagines of the two of them burned into my mind and dog walker says she was over the other day.. REALLY?
Oh and there's a half of bottle of white wine in the fridge from last night? WTF?
I FLIP!
I sent him a message and asked if Brenda would mind if I drank the rest of her wine and how there day was at the pool.
LOL
Basically, it's NONE of my business.. which is why I didn't ask and I knew that this was going to happen.. he can't hide everything and I'm at his house all day.
He knows i'm crazy.. WTF?
Anyway.. I feel a lot better now that I've vented.
I'm sorry I snooped but he should have changed his fucking password.
We've been fighting all morning. I left and told him to go fuck himself.
He's a good liar and made up some excuses..
I don't care.
I want him out of my life for good.
Nothing good is going to come of it.
Ex's can't hang out without one of them having feelings for the other one eventually!
It just doesn't work.
I hope he gets an STD from some ugly bitch!
GRRRR.. I hate MEN and their fucking lies!!!
I'm going to slit my wrists... BYE!
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